Weight of offenses against you.
Weight of misdeeds, intentional and not, curled in and through your being.
Weight of abandonment. Of abuse.
Of corruption. Of deceit. Of exploitation. Of injustice. Of perversion and manipulation. Of hatefulness and rage and retaliation. Of resentment and vengeance. Of scorn and mockery and neglect.
Of infidelity. Of betrayal and collusion.
Of exposure.
Of distortion and evasion and slander.
Of selfishness. And ill will. And disdain.
Weight of grief.
It’s called “dead weight.” How long did we carry that dead weight around with us? We got rid of the killer but we were left having to carry a bag of unrealized hopes, dreams, wishes and broken hearts. Thanks, assholes.
LikeLiked by 3 people
Yes…thanks…
LikeLiked by 2 people
Agreed Lauren.
My husband is a narrcistic person.
I don’t think I really knew what that was.
Do they feel shame? No.
LikeLiked by 1 person
I didn’t know who Loser was either….and no. They don’t feel shame.
LikeLiked by 2 people
I always wondered why the emotions, behind such powerful words and deeds, were so hard to untangle or untie and release. Now I understand it is because they are more like stones. I suppose we need to visit an ocean, a lake or a creek and do some major skipping with those stones. If only to defy their weight for mere seconds at time.
Peace to you, dear.
LikeLiked by 2 people
That is a beautiful picture! I love it…and may just try it 🙂
LikeLiked by 3 people
It would be lovely to be able to all go there and do that….skip and sink those stones..
LikeLiked by 1 person
The grief…so heavy. Grief for all that has been lost. The time, the memories, the closeness, the opportunities, the togetherness. All we can do is to release the weight of it stone by stone. One at a time. ❤️
LikeLiked by 4 people
That’s it. Stone by stone. And trying not to get too weary along the way…
LikeLiked by 3 people
Ah, the weight of grief. What a heavy burden. This I am familiar with
LikeLiked by 2 people
I know you are. I’m sorry…maybe you can let one little stone out at a time?
LikeLiked by 2 people
Yes. That’s what I’m trying to do
LikeLiked by 2 people
Such a powerful image SS, it depicts the solid weight we carry inside our bodies and minds so very graphically.
Your words are so powerfully descriptive of our agony.
Offences, misdeeds, abandonment, corruption, deceit, exploitation, injustice, perversion, manipulation, hatefulness, rage, retaliation, resentment, vengeance, scorn, mockery, neglect, infidelity, betrayal, collusion, exposure, distortion, evasion, slander, selfishness, ill will, disdain, grief.
The only other word I think belongs here is FILTH. It’s the filth that seems to have broken me most. Those mental images and the echos of his voice telling me what he did… They haunt me.
LikeLiked by 2 people
Oh yes. The filth. That is a wicked mind curse… Hugs to you…
LikeLiked by 1 person
Hugs back SS. Thank you and all Gods blessings on you in every way possible.
LikeLiked by 1 person